Forgive

I forgive you for what you have done. Whole heartedly accept your apology. When and if you sincerley apologise. When and if you finally see that what you have done was not ok at all. And no amount of  reasoning or justification for your actions absolves u for the abuse and fear u instilled in me on thursday. 

This is why nothing else scares me. Not to even go through it on Monday by myself without u. Nothing scares me anymore. But you. Because that was the first and only time I feared for my life. And even after that, I still was scared for u. I was scared that you were going to do something stupid because I actually thought that you were going to see sense like a normal person with a conscience and see what you did was not ok at any level.

violence against women is never ok. And I cannot believe even for a day that i actually thought what you did was ok. 

But I forgive you. 

I really do.

Apology or no apology.

Justification or no justification.