Big change.

Hey all,

sorry been off the face of this planet for a bit. Just been digesting some stuff and not to mention super busy.

I guess the real big thing is my big move to London :) An unexpected job opportunity has come up and it couldn't have come at a better time. Im so excited and so cannot wait to close this chapter of my life and jump unto the next. Not to mention, I will be able to hang with my Bestie and J again. :) Of course, I will have to wait till I graduate (thanks parents....) but ill be leaving for India in January and backpack my way round .....

Oh over the weekend, This stupid girl threw a bottle at my head. Thank god it missed my pretty face. My sister starts work with me this weekend...Yay! Or Nay...I don't know.

I hate Biochem.

That is all.

xoxo

I can procrastinate through packing as well.

Yeah ok so Im trying to pack, but go figure, I left all my washing till the last minute....so i figured that there was no point in me packing until all my washing was done . That way, I can look at ALL of my options....to pick the modest clothing from my errm not so modest clothing??

Get this phone call at quarter past 8 from this woman......blasts me....then adds at the end..."good luck packing and have fun at your holiday!"

Why thank you for that.

Much more writing needs to happen.

xx

Semester one over and out!

Finished my exams yesterday and today I modelled for my sisters exam today. Felt like I was on Project runway, what with all the people running around and the hair and the make up and the drama! THE DRAAAAMMMMAAAA!

Anyways, they picked and picked and picked on Mei's clothing.....whatever.....I thought they were beautiful. :)

9 days till my holiday. So friggin excited!

Ok, Im off to write!

xx

The Sad Chapters.

It was one of the hardest weekends that I have had in a while that really tested the substance of my being. Top that off with a dagger in my heart. I cried for 2 days. Maybe more if you counted the outbursts in the bathroom, the strippers room and even in his bed when he left the room.

I finally had to come to the realisation that I need to start taking my own advice that I dish out to all the people that feel the need to ask me for advice. People come and go. Friendships end. People break each others hearts. And that you cannot save everybody.

I told a person and he snapped back at me saying that it was my fault. And I chose to accept what he said over the other 5 people that told me that it wasn't. Why is this. At the time, I let it go, and now I think back to it.....Im angry.

Its the one criticism that you choose to remember in spite of the many other praises that you are given. This is true and it was most definately true in this instance.

Its never a failure and always a lesson.

Everyone has the ability to hurt, but only the ones that matter, shatter.

I was shattered.

Its going to be over soon!

"There's a drumming voice inside my head that starts when your around

Swear that you can hear it, it makes such an almighty sound

Louder than sirens, louder than bells

Sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell.

As I move my feet towards your body

I can hear this beat

Fills my head up

It gets louder and louder"

Its almost over. 8 months of my life. Just finish it. Im a wreck. Sweet relief will set in. It will all be ok.

Stay alive and kicking people.

Don't lie to the Story teller.

U should learn never to lie to the story teller. Because all it does is see through your lies, and then put it to paper. Where it will keep it and one day use it to tell the world, your darkest secrets. This would expose you and put you to shame.

But for the storyteller, oh no. But for the story teller, this would bring her glory. For you see, what it wants, is not recognition, or gold, or for glory. All it wants is to see the emotions that come with the exposure.

For you see that is the curse of the story teller. What they thrive on, is the experience.

I've finally figured out how to upload images!

Ive been blogging for a disgusting amount of time and Ive only just figured out how to upload images.

In my hands above you will see the only copy ever to be reproduced of saturated reality. Its brillant really, series of short stories that was compiled of a wee friend of mine. So glad we met, Superstar.

I had my thesis presentation yesterday that went far from good. Even attempting to write about the event brings anger, vomit and tears. Grrrr.

Funnily enough the only person that I could even talk about it to was a patron at the Royal. Perhaps it was the that he wasn't involved in my life at circumstance that I felt it was ok to unburden all this "disappointment" to. After all, what expectation would he have of me?

I've decided that I love red bull. I don't give a rap that I have to crack one open every morning to get me going. Fuck it. Its my vice. Judge me if you please.

The next month of my life is going to be sheer and utter hell. Then after....Bliss in Vietnam.

Hope everything is going swell with you folks.

Stay alive and kicking.

xx