Fat

I usually speak to my bar manager about twice a week on the phone to pretty much discuss the events of the bar and gather what we are going to do for the next big events etc. But lately, we have been speaking more often given recent happenings and the place of work has started to become a bloody scene from "passions".

Today, the conversation lead to one of my favourite dancers soon to be laid off because she was getting too "fat". X is seriously one of the most beautiful, genuine and sincere people I have gotten to know in this life and we have become fast stead friends in recent months. However, due to personal problems, she has started a course of antidepressants and that has not been good for her physical health as she has started to put on some weight. Apparently, it has gotten to the point whereby her naked body has become too "unsightly" for the majority of "fine" gentlemen that visit the bar.

X has a mortgage and a son. How is she suppose to fend for herself when she gets laid off?

Fat.

Every woman's insecurity. What happens when insecurity becomes reality.

Being a runner, I constantly have to watch what I eat. Last Friday, I did a sponsered beach run. I came in 5th and when the 1st, 2nd 3rd, 4th and 7th place got picked to do a Nike sponsered run and not me, my trainer comes bak to inform me that they didn't feel that I had the right look for the run. I asked him what they meant.

"Vet, they think you are too fat."

Granted, Im not skinny. I have a slow metabolism hence I can never eat Carbs when Im in running season. But for god's sakes! You are going to pick the 7th place runner instead of me? Me...that clocked in 12km in an hour.

And for that split second, I actually felt stung.

I remember heading over to Geelong to meet up with my friends and telling them the events of the day and at one point being asked why I watched what I eat all the time. Well simple, because I need to stay in the weight zone of 65kgs and I have a slow metabolism which means I cannot burn of carbs as fast as other people. On top of that, I can't have extra weight on me when I run. So, I have done all that is possible for me to stay fit. Is this not enough?

YES. It is enough. Because if you are told ladies that despite your abilities, you are judged upon your appearance, then fuck them. Stand up for yourself and be strong. Because the last thing you want is to set this example for the little girls of the future generation.

Until my next rant. x