I just dont know what Im doing...Im walking and doing walking and doing.

This morning when I woke up, I found myself staring at the ceiling.  Just for 30 seconds or so, I forgot where I was. Then I remembered I was still here, I hadn't left. 

Brrrring Brrrrring Brrring...hello hello hello

Ring a ling ling Ring a ling ling 

Hello hello hello

Cause if your calling at 2 in the morning...it can only mean one thing.....

dang dang

Hate you. 

Dearest God

Grant me the courage to do what i can,

Patience to wait for the things that can't be changed

And for Wisdom to know the difference. 

Amen.

If you're reading this, 

Im sorry I couldn't love you the way you wanted me to.  Im sorry I couldn't put fingers to a key board to text you back. I didn't know what to say till now. I know what its like when you profess your love and you don't hear back. 

I wish you all the best and hope that wherever you are, you are happy. You are finding peace, answers and more and more meaning to life. I hope one day I find the same. :)

I don't regret anything. You taught me the meaning of old schooled romance, life lessons and instilled trust back into my life. You were the best distraction to my ordinary life. And i mean that in the most sacred way. 

And finally, Im really sorry J if I hurt you in any way. That was never my intention. 

Please take care of yourself . 

xx

Knife to Chest

I take back those sweet breaths. 

Hurts.